It's only a car...

With all of the changes that we have had to make over the past year because of our change in income. We have taken most of the changes rather well. I really wasn't expecting this change to be so hard... We have known for over a month that we wouldn't be able to keep the SUV, so I knew that it wouldn't be long before we would have to see it go. Today we cleaned our things out of the car, and as we cleaned, memories came back of our road trips to see family out of town and everything else that we have done in that car as a family. Jaden and I were both crying... not over the car, per se, but the memories. I had to remind Jaden (and myself) of the reason why it is going. I can not stay at home with my girls and keep the car... put that way, of course, the choice is clear- I would rather be with the girls than have a car ANY day.
With the loss of the car, we lose more than one bill- we lose the car note, the insurance payment, & the upkeep (oil changes, gas, inspection, registration).
The car is a reminder of a past life- A life when LeCount and I were working so much that we rarely saw our girls... Pressures of over-time, but preferring to be with our family. Yes, we were able to buy everything that the girls needed, but things do not replace time.
Saying all of this, though, I still feel a loss of all that we were able to give them (even, though, I know in my heart that what I am giving them now is so much greater than all of that).